Just like me, you also may have heard it, umpteenth time that, if we sow the seeds of cactus we can not expect a crop of roses. From the seed of mango, there will be mango tree not a litchi tree. This law also applies to human life, as per the rule of karma our present life is only a phase in the history of our births, we reap in this life the fruit of actions of our past lives.
Suddenly, now it made sense to me now, why staffs like room nannies, cooks and
many other staffs in Bal Mandir believed that we were cursed child; thats why we ended up in Bal Mandir. For details on this read my article Are We Cursed ?
But, I think just the other way around. It may be because during my work in Everest Hotel there was a simple rule and we were trained to follow it strictly that ‘guest is always right’ because they kept us in business and they helped us to pick up our bills. Therefore, this is the reason or impact in my mind, when I look back to understand those believe held by those junior staffs, changed my whole perception and I think its the other way around. My life as a child in Bal Mandir was perfect, except those rubbish believe, which kept injecting in our young minds continuously. Had I not worked in the hotel, which diligently followed that believe derived from Sheraton group of Hotel Management; I too would have been agreed blindly with all of them, who thought we were cursed.
His name was Aayta Bahadur, Magar perhaps; but I am just quite not sure about his last name. He was the patient of severe case of down syndrome, pure example of life being in the vegetative condition. He walked wobbly and did unitate or his potty on his bed. He needed to fed, do the potty, clothing, cleaning and washing also. In fact, he could not do anything, that we normally take for granted in life.He was not just down syndrome case but suffering from serious illness and was on heavy dose of drug also for fits and seizure. So there was a woman, who were there to take care of him. In her room, which was the most smelly due to adult urine and... There was two more mildly disabled boys in her room, I doubt they were just boys, they must be older than other children in Bal Mandir, but I was tooyoung to even guess their age. But one thing for sure; Aayta Bahadur was the oldest ones, among the three boys. Subhas was mentally retarded, who always drooled heavily and threw his drooled towards those who teased him. Amitabh, was may be paralysed in one side of his body, he had one leg short and one hand bent. Oh ! yes other children always teased them, may be including me, but its pretty strange; why don't I remember it, I was on of them to tease the ones, who were already in trouble ? Do the children knew; it was sin to tease the troubled ones ? Poor children, they will grow up one day to know all that.
Edgar Cayce, who had extra super sensory power and he also could see the past life of a person when he was in hypnotic condition. He had referred in umpteen times that there is direct relationship between sorrow in life and sinful action in the past life.
While reading ‘What is in the Ved’ by Dr. Prapannacharya, writer had clearly hinted that down syndrome is a form of a curse. It really had shocked me when I read it. Curse to whom ? the one who is suffering or the one who are the parents ? but if you flip the pages of books which believes in karma it gives a clear hint that some sickness are curse targeted at the parents [the caretaker] not the child or who is born with it. This is one of the hardest thing, I have read to be convinced.
But, Aayta Bahadur was stranded in Bal Mandir by his parents maybe and Kanchhi [Tamang] didi was just the caretaker, yet she had to do the potty, then feed him, cleaning all an adult toilet that too on bed if she missed him talig out when he needed to do it. Sometimes he also had sever fits, which caused her to tussle with him and then he unknowingly used to strangled her up in uncontrollable manner. That job of hers was sure not easy, May I put it, it being as hellish work for her.
Compared to other room nannies, she only had to take care of three people, others had to take care of about twenty young children and there was only two room nannies for young children and for teen just one room nannies. On top of that they also had to make us breakfast and daytime snacks once a week,Kanchhi Didi was excused to do all other work which other nannies needed to do on daily or weekly basis.
“What wrong did I do in my past life, to go through this kind of suffering ?” is one common question people keep asking when they find themselves mired in hard times in life. I do not remember I have heard her ask this question and even if she had asked it then, I could have forgotten by now. Her work was enough to drain her so she was not the happy type of nannies to remember in my mind and if you have read my earlier post The Punishment, it may also give you a glimpse of her psychological state of mind. I am sure that Maya may have got such harsh punishment from the over reactive complaint, which the housemother Sabitry Basnyat got from her.
When I was around in eighth grade, perhaps at that time those adults disabled were shifted to other places, may be Jorpati; but I have no idea about it. Once they were shifted to other places the services of Kanchhi didi was no longer needed therefore, she left Bal Mandir almost immediate after the shift.
When I look back and try to understand the things as it was said to me about the karma, I can't help but to wonder; does she has to go to hell too after life ? Was not that, what she had to go through in her life here on earth, was in itself, a hell like experience ?
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