What made him so angry ?

Bal Mandir with 200 children inside it always needed a dog or two to protect them for this or that reason . But for some strange reason, it had mainly female dogs, not the male dog [ or I just don't remember it quite right, but what I remember is, there used to be bunch of puppies every winter].

There used to be a man, whose name was Kanchha Dai. He used to clean main kitchen and the big pan, in which they used to cook food for us. He was quite normal when he was surrounded by the ladies [room maids] while doing his work. But when he used to see the doggy he lost his temper. He used to catch it and then raise it above his head and then bang he used to throw them on the floor as if he is throwing a heavy stone on the floor.

Dogs just got on his nerve, but the question till today remains in my head; why he was so angry with dogs ? He used to hit them and kill them.

While growing up in Bal Mandir, it was quite a common sight for us, to watch him hitting dogs with sticks or big stones; whenever they came close to him, and those occasional rising it above his head, holding it with both of his hands and banging them on the kitchen floor or wherever was just to much for us to understand it. Even today.

Once, I do remember they killing a dog [as they say mad dog] which I don't know what mad dog was then. They trapped the dog in our class rooms, which had wide open ventilation that was open in our front yard side and they just killed the dog with such brutal way, its not easy for me to go in to detail of how ruthlessly the dog was killd. Big boys were also in this killing and yes, of course, our Kanchha Dai, was always ready to kill dog any time. Perhaps he would be ready to kill a dog even in his deep sleep.

Once, when he banged a doggy there was rumour, that the doggy was pregnant and that bang just miscarriage its pregnancy. He was brutally ruthless towards dogs and I am curious now, to know why was he so angry all the time ? why those dogs made him so angry ?

Some times, when he was working with ladies he used to show them, his hand from back side, trying to fix it on the air. It always used to shake, just like that. They told them, that he must have killed a cat, to have such shaky hands. It is believed that, the cat killers cant fix their hands, on the air just like that.

Oh My God ! the sight still haunts me so badly, when I see dogs matting during the mating seasons; but the scene reels in my head from my childhood days. Those continuous bang on the matting dogs on the part they are joined from back to back, in an effort to separate them from for long hours of matting. Of course went in vain, however the bang never stopped for next time. It just wont go away from my head. Because, I just grew up watching it before I was even ten or younger than that, not even knowing, why was he so angry with dogs ? what made him more angry when he say those dogs mating.

Some childhood memories just keep haunting for life, specially when you try to understand those, who are hard to understand and their behaviour. What could be worse, you cant even go and ask them, why did he did all that ? I mean really, why was he so angry about ? was he really angry with dogs or it was only the means to let his anger out ? The reason may have been different.

My brain just wont stop asking more questions.